Thursday, January 17, 2008

"BUB"

So I know it's been a while since I posted anything new. The past few weeks have been crazy, and emotional. Let me start by re-capping. As part of our adoption, we have to provide references, and only one can be a relative. Jeremy and I decided to ask my grandma, who is affectionately called Bub, if she would be our reference. We asked her after Thanksgiving Dinner and it was quite an experience when she replied, "I'd love to, this is so special, I'm honored" with tears in her eyes. She excitedly asked when the papers would arrive every time we saw her. Finally they arrived on January 5th just one short day before she very unexpectedly passed away. My sweet Bub spent part of her last morning, from what I have been told, working on our reference letter. A notebook was found with her unmistakable perfect handwriting where she wrote out each question and thoughtfully began to answer. It was so sweet to read how she described Jeremy, she loved him, maybe more than me!

I miss and love her so much, but I feel very strongly that she is still playing a vital role in this process for us, she was so excited for us to start our family through adoption and I know she's still very aware of our desire to have children. Some have commented that she probably decided to handle things on the other side, rather than wait for them to happen here. Probably so...

14 comments:

heidikins said...

This is so sweet; I know Bub will be looking out for your child, wherever he or she may be.

Love you both,
xox

Erin said...

Jenny I'm sorry for your loss. My Grandma died before BLake was born, but she was the first one Kyle and I told that we were having a baby. When Blake was born with red hair (my G-ma had red hair)I knew she had something to do with it! I am a firm believer that there are loved ones on the other side taking care of us and watching out for us.

The Maughans said...

Jenny, what an amazing/sad experience!And Jeremy... you really are awesome! I'm so glad you two got married.

Miss Erika said...

You know, she probably DID decide to just take care of everything from heaven. I am so excited for your child to come to you!

Brandon & Sara said...

It was so good to see you guys last week even though it was not under the best circumstances! I know Bub loves us and is watching over us. It is so touching that she had started your adoption papers. You know she is still playing a part in it all!

Annie said...

What a special memory you have of her last moments. I know that Bub is taking care of your sweet babe that is just waiting to come and be with you...that is just what she does.

Sara said...

Wow Jenny! That really is a sweet, sweet story. How lucky you are to have such a wonderful grandma! I know things are going to work out the way they are meant to. You're such a wonderful example to me-- you really are!

Melissa said...

Jenny, What an amazing story! I have a friend who has now adopted two children and they are happy. I am sure your grandma is watching over baby. Have a great week! You are amazing!

The Flint's said...

Jenny & Jeremy-
I love this post and I know that Bub is taking things into her own amazing hands. I'm sure she's prepping your little one on how lucky they will be to come to your family and what great parents you guys will be. I'm so glad she started the papers and you guys will always have that precious piece of Bub's perfect handwriting. Our prayers are with you guys through this process.
love,
Erin

katie and kaden marble said...

hey sis! i love you:)

Megan said...

Okay Jenny, I can't stop the tears! I am seriously crying right now! I have NO doubt that she was meant to complete that special letter before her time to go. What a special memory for you to hold on to. I've been thinking a lot about our Gma & Gpa too...probably because I've been reading that book Aunt Sharlee put together of Gpa's writings. Yeah, I'm an emotional mess! So many memories. Well, best of luck with the whole adoption process. I love you!

Joel & Lila said...

Hi, I know you don't know me and I don't know you, but a friend told me she found this site the other day. My husband and I are also just starting our adoption paperwork after four years of heartache and struggle. I was wondering what agency you are going through. I would be interested in compairing stories.

Mary Ann Shoff said...

Jenny, As you know we have been on the other side of adoption. Hannah wasn't ours except for a few days. It was the hardest, sweetest and most spiritual experience we have ever gone through. The process of being chosen is a very sacred experience and you will get the child you are intended to have. Good luck in the journey and you will get a miracle. Love ya, Mary Ann

Brandon & Sara said...

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!! Hope you guys have a great day!